Have pulled myself out from bed though i was already asleep...juz to return the call upon seeing "one missed call"...it may sound silly but i still chose to do so. But b4 we can talk for long, something bad happen liao and he got to resolve. And there it goes....trying to get myself into sleep....after much toss and turn, i unknowingly fell asleep.

I realli hope things do change for the better...

miss ya lotz... do u?

i dunno wat's wrong....am i unreasonable? I have nv tried to see things from so many perspectives...realli, i swear! I accepted all the answers...got to admit i m realli depressed nw... feeling that things are not right. I am doing my best indeed till this pt in time...

hahaa...as per request, someone asked me to update my blog. Well, u said u r busy and so din update urs. I am busy oso lei...but still try to squeeze my brain juice to cum out wif some entry...hee

Tat someone is busy with shitty work, trainings, biz etc.....while i m tied with my tutorials, presentation and some other question marks hovering in my head!

We are busy bees... (",)

hee....it's us! while clara is singing away, we are trying to snap some shots! 

"It is to regard other people's countries as one's own. Regard other peoples' families as one's own. Regard other people's person as one's own." - Mo Tsu.

No wonder Mencius opposed Mo Tsu's practice of universal love. Though wat Mo Tsu mentioned is correct to some extent, it would be immoral if u treat someone's gf as your own rite? hahaaa..... tat's wat i told clara.

Tat's wat i learn today during lecture...kekeZ...

Well, i went to KTV again! hahaa...wif my NUS khakis...and our theme was JUE DUI SUPERSTAR! kekez....most of the songs were performed by the contestants...and we even sang those oldies. hahaaaa.....we had fun..trying to destress b4 the real things begin to kick in..

Oh ya, today i was super lucky lor...hahaa...i took the same train and bus as HSY! hahaa.... but he got no image @ all lor... still dash across the road with his flip-flop slippers, trying to catch the shuttle bus....tarnished his image....anyway, the craze over him is over and now the in-guy is JUNYANG! hee....so sadz, we din spot him @ Arts canteen today.

k enuff of rubbish liao...stardie stardie....

Stressed wif all the piling reading and deadlines that i am gg to face and scared tat i might flunk this sem and i realli dun wanna see my CAP to decline further....but somethings are realli beyond my control.

Tired cos i haven been sleeping enuff i suppose.....

Troubled cos of my studies, results, and miscellaneous issues.

I dun like to ask pple things and prefer pple to tell me...to furnish me wif the updated information. In a way, this helps to assure me. Asking pple do give me answers to the questions i wan but i feel that i am intruding the privacy of one.

In fact, i dislike pple asking me certain qns recently. Qns that are straightforward but i dunno how to go abt answering. One answer might lead to further doubts raised... no one could guide me wat to do or rather how to answer.

No matter wat, i demand myself to regain the determination and strive that i once had....i wanna achieve a breakthrough! I am not gg to see a lower CAP!

I have been struggling for my management science (it's juz a disastrous module) tutorial over the weekend and as mentioned in my previous entry, i have redo it for about five or six times! And when the tutor went through the answers, i loathe myself for being so stupid! The answers look simple and it seems easy to the rest of the pple. Benny( that ah-beng friend of mine) was sitting beside me and he looked enlightened after explanations from the tutor. I am still kinda confused lar....but now i m trying real hard to resolve my doubts!

Talking about Benny... it's realli so qiao to be in the same tutorial class as him! He was smsing me half an hr b4 the tutorial began to complain how hard the tutorial was and he dunno how to do them. Then i was thinking it would not be so qiao to be in the same class lor cos there were so many slots and no prior arrangement has been made. Still, we ended in the same slot! hahaaa....cant help saying tat i m suay lor...cos he always brought inconvenience to me....either ask me to print notes for him, reserve a seat for him or help him buy this or tat.. BUT he did help me wif my work lar...kekez...wat a kind ah beng friend i got!

hee....while i am blogging, say wee was msning me to tell me his friend saw Jun Yang @ Arts Canteen! hahaaa....and i will be gg tml morning for my Psychology lecture lei...kekeZ...hope i can catch a glimpse of him ba!

Recently, it seems like pple are missing me wor... 2 pple told me ydae cos they haven seen me like for so long...hahaa....and today, ting conveyed to me tat sk xiang wo too! hahaa....so gan dong....i m realli touched! miss ya, peepz too!

k k enuff le... i wanna work hard this sem! kanbate!

After school has started for 2 wks, tutorials are gg to commence from tml onwards. And u noe wat? I have been stucked in one of the tutorials for 2 days! I am juz too stubborn tat i cant solve them so i redo them twice or thrice. Soon, my confidence begin to diminish and i am here blogging.

Sch work aside, if u have read my previous entry, i have bought weilian's Cd! hee....and i m thinking if i shd buy kelly's...hahaaa... I noe i shd have a stand lar but i like both contestants lei...so how to be impartial? hmmm...but someone gg to buy kelly's rite? then i can listen oso mah....kekeZ

sianz...gonna get back to my studies le....Next wk is d third wk le...so fast! hee....nvm, i shall keep my eyes wide open in sch...perhaps i might be able to spot JunYang (SuperStar's eliminated contestant) out there! Check it out, man!

Yo yo peepz! Weilian's CD is out today....so if u support him, go grab one now! hee..3 cheerz for Weilian! 

I have onli completed the finance tutorial the whole day...can u imagine? Though those things look familiar, it seems like they are all erased from my brain! Feel no sense of achievement cos did nothing much...sianz...i must be more disciplined! More yong4 gong1.....jia you!

Now...shd sleep to conserve energy to watch Superstars tonite! hee....realli hope weilian will not be eliminated but i noe it's tough...Junyang deserved to stay on too...haiz...

well, it's waiting pple again....hahaa...each time i spend my time waiting for a person, i realise how far my patience can stretch. Seriously, i loathe waiting and pple who noe me will understand that i dislike pple being late...ya, i noe i am late @ times too...hahaa...

The most hateful thing of the day was to log into the website to register for my tutorial slots! The server is down since 9am in the morning till evening 7 plus...can u imagine? We met early in the morning juz to do this and yet, the page juz cant be loaded and some of us cant even log in. All the shit stuff lor...nvm...then for the Chinese Tradition module, the lecturer din post his slides beforehand for us again! Wat the hell lor, we nid to take note and copy stuff @ the same time...do we look like writing machines? To make matters worse, the entire lecture was on Confucius (aka Kong Zi). All about his "ren" or benevolence....taught us abt "dao4"...and the more he goes, the more i feel like i am in a temple learning about buddhism or rather daoism stuff.... I am not joking lor! I realli mean it...

Let me share wif u guys somethings that my lecturer said....hahaa....this lecture from me is free of charge wor!

"A man of 'ren' is not one who is totally selfless. But in the process of pursuing his dreams, he will not harm others or live out others. He will try to help others to be as successful as he is.

Self is not an isolated self but is connected with the nature, outside world etc. You need to promote the well-being of others.

If a person fails to realise 'ren', he's cut off from the rest of the world and be a lonely individual."

yawnzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......boring rite? Imagine i got to sit there for an hr plus to listen to these preachings and take note lor! k, time for bed....i must study hard hard tml @ hm!

Tutorials gonna begin real soon and tat implies that I will be getting busier! Btw, i got to know an ah beng in my sch recently during help out @ O wk. He looks like a slacker but he's definitely not! My jaws dropped wide open when he told me his CAP...it's super high and made me feel down right demoralised....i mean it. His dressing made him beng but he's not.... Click well wif him lar cos he's damm crappy! heee and so we became study buddies le~

BUT study wif him oso can be irritating lor... he was looking @ the on and off human traffic...bio for chio bus and then nv pay attention to wat i say...pek chek rite? Wat can i say? He's juz too intelligent lor... Hope he can help me a great deal and gain a A lar...hahaa....one will be sufficient... i am not a greedy gal afterall.

Well, it seems like when sch reopens, my entries are mostly abt my sch stuff....my readings are increasing as days go by...but i am not motivated to read those elective modules stuff cos it's abt Confucius, Mencius, Laozi etc....all abt the teachings of those learners! TEll me how to be interested in such stuff lor^ I am so tired......

I am not feeling good abt it even though u have apologised. I've accepted ur apologies but still not getting any better. hahaa.....perhaps, i m juz not easy to pacify? Or rather, i m juz unreasonable? I tried to cool down....If i were you, think i will be pissed off as well ba. But i truly appreciate cos @ least u let me noe tat u are irritated by me...And i expected that.

Feel like tearing now...juz dunno wat the hell is wrong wif me... Sometimes, i dun like to reveal wat's wrong wif me when i m moody or angry or watever cos it may lead to further disputes or unhappiness. Juz like now.

I could be in the wrong as well.... sorry too...hopefully my apologies are accepted.

I dunno if i am kicking a fuss....but i simply dun like the feeling to wait for a call and the person din call back though he promised to. Ever since the ******** incident, i realli detest it when pple say they will call back later but they dun. U may think tat i got nothing better to do...why make a "wooha" over this? Perhaps this is the principle that each person carries ba... different pple have varying preferences, attitudes and habits. It's juz like you dun like pple to hang up ur call half-way thru a conversation.

OK, i m done wif my complaints for the day...

hahaa...yes i shd be reading my text and piling references now but why am i reading this? : http://jay-chou.net/forums/showthread.php?s=344b97b0fe7b4b7a7b0ad2f393288998&t=13527

kekez...was browsing someone bloggie and realised that jie lun bashed some paparazzi up! Well, guess there is an limit to each tolerance level and as for Jay's, it has been stretched till the max le.

Okie, tat's enuff, juz a ba1 gua4 update for u guys and i m realli gonna work hard le....say bye bye to my slacker's life!

I am so tempted to buy the Guess watch cos it's so versatile....u can simply change the strap as and when you wish to match ur dressing and the ocassion as well! ~still trying to control myself...think i dun like it tat much lar....hor?
 

I've written down tat lessons commence @ 11am but i had a hunch that lead to confirm b4 i start to prepare myself for school. And bingo, commencement time is 12pm lor...hahaa....so here i m, updating my blog cos someone is so hardworking wor...updated his blog....hee...

Btw, i have watched "Bewitched" ydae....not too bad...can be recommended if u want a good laugh! hmmm....Charlie and His Chocolate Factory is still on my list....yes, i noe some may think that it's so bo liao to watch tat! But think this show will bring me back to my secondary days... when everyone 'pianging' to complete the listed books for English Reading Programme(ERP)..and "Charlie" was one of those books.

Well, think i realli got nothing much to say le...and i have cracked my brain to squeeze the above 2 paragraphs. ~ciao

Had a yummy lunchie @ grandma's hse. hahaa....fried rice , chicken wings and fish are enough to satisfy me cos my grandma is a great cook! kekeZ....so contented after the meal...
In no time, i gotta eat another round cos my brother is heading back to camp soon...so fast sia...think he has changed quite abit le...perhaps mature le ba~

Well....today is juz another day...hopefully later i can buy something to brighten my mood..hehee..ya, i noe it's another excuse to spurlge $$.

Yes, it's us again @ KBOX Suntec with others on monday! hahaaa....dun worry, we drank luo han guo drink! (",)

ya i noe it's beri dark...hope u guys can see the gang of 3! ~from left to right: Huanqi, Wilfred and Karen~ @ KBOX Tampines on Sunday

i'm gonna be a SUPERSTAR! hahaa.....went to ktv for 2 consecutive days (Sunday and Monday)..OMG! And it's like i dun even noe wat to sing sia..BUT it's definitely an excellent time-killing activity plus it's fun. Tat definitely depends on who u go wif lar, rite?

Well, it's my 1st day of sch ydae and 2 hrs of lecture w/o a break striked the day. That indian lecturer changed my general impression of Indians...hahaa.....heh pls, i m not a racisit lor! But seriously, most of them talked like machine-gun and most of the time, it's extremely tough to figure out what they are trying to say. Their accent is one of the barriers for communication. However, this lecturer of mine spoke clear American-styled English. Heng ar! Otherwise, i think this entire module is gone. hahaa....

I hope i wont screw up this sem cos it somehow looks manageable. And i merely left 3 more semesters (hopefully more semesters to accomodate the honours yr, hahaaa) and i'll be wearing the graduation gown! jia you~

Recently, i m very confused. I dunno wat i am doing and if i have done the correct thing. Perhaps you can sense that i treat u rather cold @ times. Rembr i said i nid time? But it seems like things seems to proceed too fast without sparing any time for me to think. aiya....dunno lar

Saywee juz asked if i have prepared my notes....and i was like....hahaa...so long din log into the system liao. And here i m, logging in to see wat the modules expect from us. well well, saw some familiar terms which i have studied in d previous semesters...so scary. I am gonna be back to fight d battle wif assignments, projects, presentations, tests and exams! Hopefully free-riders, bootlickers, backstabbers and hypocrites wont bump into me...hahaa...

hmm...i am in contact with playing pool again! can still rembr last time, wilson also taught me how to play wif his buddies. Most of the time i will forget how to position my hands each time i am back @ the pool table. hahaa....it's definitely fun and also good to learn another ball game!

hmmm..u can say i siao..think so much...but sometimes, it's juz a natural thing to do so. Though it has been a long time since i last entered into a r/ship, i find myself developing a phobia for this. Realli dunno why... perhaps have heard too much negative stuff from friends ard me, or i am still enjoying my singlehood, OR rather i dun have any intention to be hitched....Maybe i juz dun favour guys afterall! Have mentioned to my mum b4 tat i cant like a person for too long cos i will get sian in no time...hahaaa....no wonder she bombarded me wif r/ship qns recently. In fact, she kinda posed an additional form of stress to me cos she has expectations for my future bf as well! Headache rite???? hahaa.....

Well, hope such issues wont trouble me when sch reopen ba...

hee....i've finally get into the mood to search for a new blogskin. I realli luv those skins by xiaoyu283...they are so sweet...simple and nice! And i hope the font and colour suit my readers. A new skin hopefully brightens my mood to blog and also strikes the start of a new semester! Pray that i'll be blessed with happy thingy...and less worries....

YA i noe i haven been blogging....juz too lazy to log in to blogger unlike in the past, i will enthusiastically go in to multiply regardless rain or shine. anyway, i've been helping out in the Orientation wk...but freshies in my grp are like from a huge grp diminishes into 3 pple! hahaa....and by right, i am supposed to act as d game master today but i am sick once again in my holidays! Perhaps i have repeated myself too many times while flagging "Hi, would you like to make a donation?" Some give u a look which seems to imply tat " kaoz, everytime got flag day" or maybe " u guys are too free izzit?"....while others willingly give their coins to us....and upon their donations, "Thank you and have a nice day!" is my ending statement. Some will then go off nodding their heads and reveal a smile....but a few would reply " u too..." THese are definitely d minority lar.. Standing @ clementi for a day has allowed me to discover d various sides of pple. I extremely detest those who placed their hands into their pockets, looking as if they are trying to dig for coins and then later simply juz walk off. hate it! well well, enuff of tat...

Sch gonna realli start soon...hope to pack up my mood and get ready for a tougher sem, i tot.