? I dunno...perhaps it's juz thoughts for tat moment ba~ i'll be all rite.

I wont repeat my mistakes again~

Have been busy this wk revising some work and stuff....realli regretted for "ling1 shi1 bao1 fu1 jiao1"....meaning doing revision @ the eleventh hr..anyway, juz hope i will prepare better for the exams.

And ya, i still have bought my heels! i realli dunno wat i gonna wear tml sia...aiya...see how my revision goes ..maybe later go and buy.

I made a bet wif someone for 5 macdonalds meals and upsized ones okie! wahhahaha...if i gonna lose, tat person is gg to choke himself....heee....*wicked me*

One more thing: If u have seen a previous entry which i have posted a pic of a condom-look-alike item...heee...i was showing the pic to my study buddy and he guessed it's a condom and i went "NO"...he instantly threw a D****(famous and common brand) condom on the table....i was like "HUH"...where d hell did u get it? wahahahhaa....

Okie..back to my psychology text!

i have been mugging MS during d 2nd part of d day....so tensed cos i still cant figure out how the sensitivity range is derived! okie, shall not bore u all wif the details...basically i juz cant understand the concept! arghhhhh.... must bombard my study buddy tml.. he better do a good job explaining to me else i will go crazy...test is cuming on sat and i haven finished preparing for psychology test which cums after ms test...shit...why do we have tests???

How i wish i can knock myself against the wall!

hee...he's so shuai lei...i luv his chubby cheeks.....*pinch pinch* 

hee...this is my cousin's baby! he has changed so much... 

Guess wat's this?? heee....dun giggle, i tot it's condom too! BUT it's not lar....some plaster to prevent mosquitoes from biting u...hahaaa... 

heee..my cousin is getting married..and d dinner will be on this cuming fri.. getting excited not only over her wedding but oso my test on sat! aiyo...so scary ar..

Anyway, was trying on my clothes in case i gain weight..hahaa....i still haven bought my heels...shall seek for them tml perhaps!

And ting is back from BKK....she shared wif me wat she has bought in levi's! wah liao...damm cheap lor...how i wish i can fly there now to grab as much of levi's apparrels as i could afford! I must go there one of these days....hee...

Okie...mugging time~

Ting ar, think u will onli be able to see this entry when u r back in s'pore. Despite so, , I still wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U! Hope u get more promotions, pass all ur exams and get married soon...hee.... then i can attend another wedding le~ Look forward to seeing u. yooo hooo, this entry is specially for u wor! Tk care, babe (",)

I dunno why..all of a sudden, i felt so lost after our mugging session ended. Perhaps this study buddy of mine is so intelligent tat i am feeling inferior and getting worried for the upcoming tests. I dunno why i will remind myself to be careful wif my words when i tok to him...hahaa....i realli have no idea why my brain worked tat way! I was feeling super low along the way home.

Juz saw Sji's testimonial...i luv u soooooooo muchie! Have written a testimonial for u too..think u have discovered another secret of mine, that is, i m a lesbian! hahaa...beware of me then! Thanks for ur testimonial cos it juz came @ the right time to cheer me up.

I realised i m getting more demoralised wif my studies..i dunno why! Where's the hardworking karen in the past? I dun see her anymore.... not ever.. who am i then? Juz an inferior and playful gal drifting day by day~

More thoughts stirring in my mind....have u ever make use of ur friends? if u have, think it's time to do some self- reflection! Friends are there to accompany u thru bad and good not for u to fully utilise... Spare a thought for tat pitiful friend, he/she wont feel gd if he learnt about the truth!

While having a conversation wif **** (person's name kept confidential...hee), i decided to blog about it. hahaa...why? Cos i am so impressed that she's having the same thoughts and feelings as i did wks ago! I tot i was a weird individual back then...kekeZ ..When she told wat she was facing, i felt all these were so familiar to me....and in fact, i have went thru such painstaking moments too...hahaa...waiting for calls and smses... She juz could not understand why he din sms or call her even though he's free. Wat she wan is juz a sms but tat seems tough to him. There she goes....waiting endlessly for a call or msg.

She's doubful if she realli like him. Well, cum on, if u r not, u wont be looking forward to see him rite? Though u say tat u want to prove him tat he has made a wrong choice, isn't this an act to deny that u like him? So it is evident that he still occupies a crucial part in ur heart. Seriously, i realli understand how u feel..

Juz hang on and see how things go ba...pray for u tat things will go on well..

hahaa...she juz received a phone call...shd be from him ba..~giggle~

So bored!!!! Attempted to read tat "bible" but realli cant stand...doze off a few times but will still try reading later...

haiz...i juz realised tat i onli have a wk to prepare for my MS test and other modules oso....dun think the break will be sufficient...~sign~

I am so tempted to go out for fun! 1stly Ah ping asked me out for k lunch tat day but i plan to study lei...Then today benny asked me out on sat oso....i told him the same thing tat i nid to mug. It seems like heaven is trying to test my determination wor...2 pple asking me out so far...i must be able to overcome this challenge...hee.. Once mid term test is over, i will enjoy myself to the fullest!

Oh ya, june, i juz read ur blog and realised tat u and francis patched up le~ give urself another chance to try it out ba..maybe it's fated tat he's the one! hahaa... then u no nid clara liao hor.... i shall grab her! wahhahaaa.....

My mouth still hurt when i was awake this morning and it seems abit swollen. Still, i continue to spread salt on the ulcers. No mood, no appetite...

K, shall not bored you wif my rumblings...i am reading the "bible"- "A short history of Chinese Philosophy".

My mouth is aching nw...not toothache but ulcerSSSSSS......there's 2 ulcers side by side hidden in a corner!

People told me to place salt on them and they would heal in no time. So i did it now....so painful...........this person still told me to press against them and rub them! omg..faintZ

hopefully they will heal tml!

ok...i had a bad day. Forget my phone and one major thingy which i shall not mention here. hahaa.. To june: if u r reading my blog now, u shd noe wat is it ar...and thanks for looking out for me ok! hahaa....

And back to forgetting my phone, I feel so lost and handicapped...cos usually i will look for my phone when i am free. But today it is totally out of reach for me! I missed all the calls and messages. sianz~

Initally I even have the thought of not attending the psychology tutorial cos the previous one was an extremely bored one. My butt realli hurt after sitting there for 2 hrs and she din stop when time is up! Anyway, we still turned up for the class..thinking of giving her another chance to prove us wrong. hhee...it seems that we have made a gd choice cos she went thru the chapters wif us as the test is coming soon! I feel so guilty when she asked about the progress of reading the textbook...I dun dare to tell her tat i din even complete a chapter...hahaaa...i m realli serious lor. Did try to read the 1st chapter and it simply reminds me of the biology text i used to read in sec sch. The 1st chapter of this psychology text is about sensory neuron etc lor....so i decided to stop there and then. However, that strong sense of guilt within me has signalled me to start doing something. I must definitely make full use of the upcoming wk ( ie my term break) to catch up as much as possible.

Oh ya, ah june, forget tml is ur turn to take the quiz rite? so i suppose u wont have time to read my blog...hahaaa...dun be too happy though ur tutor wld set MCQs for ur class...Still, gd luck to u! =P

I am in the sch lab nw...juz took my finance quiz...well, like wat Benny said, it's realli tough! 10 minutes to do 6 questions lor...and the issue is they are not all MCQs....

merely 2 mcqs and the rest involve theory and calculations. Wat the shit lor...think i might flunk...haiz...hopefully can get @ least 5 out of 10...hahaa....i am easily contented this time..

Someone noes all my embarrasing and ugly secrets liao wor...hahaa...all this reaffirms that I am a lazy girl and further proves the saying to be right... " THere's no ugly women but only lazy ones." to be right."

hee..i am back from meeting the girls! Five years....we have tried to arrange to meet each other but each time, we are so busy wif our work, studies, r/ship etc that we juz cant reach a consensus to a date. Finally, it was successful on this aupiscious day!

As usual, gossips and recalls of those days....fun, interesting and memorable. And we have took so many pics...but too bad, i cant post it here cos someone is gonna say her face looks round and stop me from uploading the pics anywhere....hahaaa

I have enjoyed myself @ K lunch...thanks sji for d treat...i still luv ya! kekeZ

And i learn smth wor...tat's social smoking...hee... =)

Well, learn tat d jerk (ah ping, u noe who i refer to hor) got a new gf wor... u feel anything anot? think shd feel abit upset rite? Pity tat poor gal...If she noes wat's he like, she will definitely regret. haiz...if somethings are not meant to be urs, let it go. Perhaps d time isnt rite or maybe fate has cum to an end. If u feel that u shd go for it, by all means. Tat's wat i normally encourage pple. BUT if it's not worth it, dun let ur efforts go down the drain or rather dun hurt urself once more. U noe tat there wont be any fruitful outcome...

hahaa...think i sound rather pessimistic in love issues...watch a show b4, it mentioned tat the better half of each individual is located somewhere in this world. U believe tat? Sad to say, i dun.

As usual, we stayed back to study ms...but teo cant focus cos the room was kinda noisy. She was pek chek lar and rejected everything tat cum to mind. Eventually she stopped mugging and played wif my phone instead. THere she began to explore and took candid shots of me lor! hahaaa...

Yeah...right is karen teo and left is karen ho! haha....KARENS rulez! 

See...tat's me! I din noe i am so focused while muggin...hahaa....this pic is taken by my mugging buddy (karen TEO) using my phone. thanks =) 

Stressed: Wif studies of coz...esp all the Chinese philosophists (eg: Confucius, Lao Tze, Mencius, Zhuang Zi and Xun Zi) for one of the modules! Arghhhh.... and ya, all the tests are cuming up.

Tired: Had a long day in sch...After classes ended, we still spent time in the library trying to look for resouces for our project. sianz~

Fat: I've gained a kg perhaps due to all the packed meals esp fast food.. juz feel tat i am super big in size.

Lazy: Too tired so dun feel like moving @ all!

Neglected: Though i am no longer a kid, i juz dun like that feeling of being left out. I dun noe if this is jealousy...all that i am aware is that i detest being neglected.

Demoralised: Cos of all the above items, my self-esteem level has hit the lowest.

Nothing much to update...suppose to be a special day but it's no longer memorable. Saw Weilian's sister, Wei ni today in the library. Juz like everyone else, she's busy looking for resources.

Well, it's a blue monday~ suffering monday blues cos there's MS tutorial today and i realli have no idea how to approach the questions. Still, i tried to draw some graphs and scribble some logical answers. I went into the class wif doubts and left with more questions and unresolved issues! hahaa...so it's like a waste of time lor but @ least i try to listen wat the tutor is trying to say lo.

And while i was on the bus home, i heard the song by JJ "Yi1 Qian1 Nian1 Yi1 Hou1". YA i noe it's nothing proud to tok abt! BUT the thing here is it's a little girl sitting in front of me singing the song lor....Initially i heard her sing and i tot the lyrics sound familiar and when she sang the chorus, i was so stunned! She noe the lyrics of the whole song.....though the tune was kinda weird, i must say that it's realli impressive for a little girl to sing tat.

Okie and so now wat? hmm....oh, june was saying she got a pair of new specs and it's red! hahaa...copy me lei...though design different...heee....i think mine nicer! =P

And mid term break is cuming soon in a wk's time... it sounds great to have a break @ last but this is not meant for relaxing purposes. This is a time to study for term tests, do projects and catch up with watever stuff lagging....so this one wk break is nv enuff to do all these....

I got to bear wif all these rubbish...shall take a short nap and continue wif revision~

As i was trying to start on my report, this guy friend of mine ( a rather weird person) greeted me hi. I tot it's polite to greet in return...and here goes our conversation.

Derrick says:
there's a shop in temasek poly selling?
Derrick says:
then i go there buy
kAren~ I am OK... says:
bookshop lor
Derrick says:
what prices are other shops selling?
kAren~ I am OK... says:
i dunno
Derrick says:
where is temasek poly?
kAren~ I am OK... says:
tampines
Derrick says:
k thanks
kAren~ I am OK... says:
welcum

i dunno if i shd laugh or wat....he said he wanted to go TP to buy so i tot he noes where's d place. Yet, he asked where's TP...pengz...this is not the onli weird conversation i had wif him...hahaa..

K..continue wif my report liao~

Expected, i din go to d gym...instead i was @ hm watching tv and trying to do my tutorial. But nothing much was done...

June's words bear some impact on me and so i have decided to put aside my Management Science text aside and do other stuff ....hahaa...i hope tat Ou JiLong (my tutor) wont check my work tml...shall seek for benny, karen and yf's help next wk....kekeZ...i nid lots of assistance esp in MS! It's a damm killer module....

I am looking forward to seeing sji next sat! We are heading to Kbox @ tampines...haha...see i m so gd lor..accomodate to go east side juz to meet u...hee... I juz cant wait for tat day to cum! Luv ya, sji. =P

hahaaa...i m free...like real! I am a lazy bum...no motivation...no mood...so nothing much was done for the day...i m damm disappointed wif myself. Sianz... i cant continue like tis...i cant forgo my semester due to my gloomy mood. Trying hard lar...

Today is the last day of the 7th mth le but i have yet to watch "The Maid". haiz...i urge to go ktv too.... learn rollerblading....ya, there's alot of things tat i wanna do! But no chance lei...

I feel kinda weird lei...wat happen to me? It seems like smth is missing within me...i m not myself.... aiya, go and do my tutorial la! =(

Oh i din tell u pple how suay i was ydae ar.... basically i was like in a daze ydae...was realli focused...i was simply in a world of my own. Printed the wrong stuff..did some malu things @ the lab.. and some others la...dun wanna think of it liao...cos today is a brand new day!

To deter myself from bad encounters, i shall stay @ hm today...may be gg out later la...see how ba~ Now playing one previous cd of Britney...i like this song: "From the Bottom of my heart".... can still rembr how i like this song while i was working in magix with elaine and guys....

I wanna try to do as many things as i can....so tat i can head for the gym tml! hope my lethargic virus wont be acting on me..kekeZ

hmmm..wat else do i wanna update lei? eh....oh, my bro is back and he's gonna graduate from BMT next wed ie 07/09/05....so fast...b4 i noe it, 3 mths fly liao! Dunno wat's lying ahead of me.. Can anyone tell me? i doubt so...

time to continue mugging!

Songs tat i normally find them nice and meaningful has touched me deeply.
Heaven is touched too...it's tearing now.

Dun worry, i'll be a better person from now on.
Though feelings are ruling me
I will try to win them over
Such words are meant for motivating
Can i do it?
A step outside my hse
Flows of thoughts start playing in my mind
Dun ever be so confident again
Ur confidence lead me to take a step into this
It hurts me deep too..

I won't try to prove how strong i m
Cos human are emotional creatures
I'll do my best to accept all these
and hopefully things will be fine

I m sure tat we'll be great friends juz like b4
tat's much happier isnt it?

I may be crying but i'll be OK!


*PS: I am not myself today so the format of the blog is rather weird, i tot.

Heartbroken to hear all those things....the end of Project Superstar signals the start of our dicussion and there, we have the conclusion.

Well, attempted my tutorials and tried doing some readings...but it seems like i din do much though and it's already late noon le...met liyu to pass her stuff for laraine...so happy to see her! and we went on to tok abt sch, work etc.... I then realised shiang lin hasnt graduate cos she's doing double major...hmmm..sounds tempting and dunno if i am eligible lor...hahaa...juz having the thought of it...see how things go ba~

I am reading abt Confucius now....hahaa....

oh ya, tonite must watch Project SuperStars wor...i like both contestants lei..Kelly is so charming wif her elegant smile and weilian's voice touched me deeply..... anyway both will get themselves a contract each....dun care who wins la...hahaaa